Memories are a part of our life. We try to remember anything and everything possible. In fact we all love to cherish only good & beautiful memories and forget all the bad / unwanted stuff. But does this ever happen?
Memories are nothing but our past. Everything that has happened in our lives from day one till date is a memory. Sometimes past is the hardest thing to remember and some other times, it is the hardest thing to forget. Ironic, isn’t it!!
I have a lot of memories from my childhood or rather I am able to remember most of the things from the time I have been able to do a Ctrl + C & Ctrl + V into the memory :)
Memorize is a word we all have heard ‘n’ number of times from people during our school or college days. We are expected to memorize all possible lessons, formulae, questions and answers, poems (by-heart) bla bla bla!!! We do try our best to do so (a well known example off late is Chatur from 3 Idiots.) We tend to forget the same when we are writing exams or while responding to our lecturers/teachers questions.
Sometimes when we are walking, driving or shopping, we come across some familiar faces, we are sure we know the person but we forget the name. And it is the most embarrassing when the person approaches us and we don’t know how to address him or her!! There are times when we finish speaking and leave and after some hours or days, we remember who the person is. Funny!! Isn’t it? This has happened to me several times. Sometimes I feel I have short term memory issue(Definitely not like Gajini!).
There are times when memories haunt us. We just pray we could forget everything and start over again in life, wish we could do a shift + Delete!! And delete for ever. No – never happens rather we don’t have a choice. God should have given us a boon to forget everything while we sleep and wake up fresh without any memories. Or at least he could have helped us archive the best of the memories and forget the unwanted.
There are many techniques to improvise our memory like the brain mapping, brain games, mind power, tricks etc but to forget the past is the hardest. Nothing can help us, no tricks no games not even counseling. It drives us crazy and makes us insane. The worst irony of life is, when things don’t work out the way we expected, the happiest moments of life turn out to be the worst haunted past. And they haunt till death :(
I don’t really know if I am making any sense from these thoughts. Just some Random thoughts from my random memories!!!
Friday, April 30, 2010
Thursday, April 29, 2010
ನಿದ್ದೆ!!
"ಚಿಂತೆ ಇಲ್ಲದವನಿಗೆ ಸಂತೇಲು ನಿದ್ದೆ ಅಂತ ಗಾದೆ ಮಾತು ಕೇಳಿದ್ದೀನಿ" ಆದ್ರೆ ಇದು ನನ್ನ ವಿಚಾರದಲ್ಲಿ ಸುಳ್ಳು ಅನ್ಸುತ್ತೆ. ಎಲ್ಲ ಕಾಲಗಳಲ್ಲೂ, ಎಷ್ಟೇ ಕಷ್ಟ ಇರಲಿ, ಚಿಂತೆ ಇರಲಿ, ನಿದ್ದೆಗೆ ಮಾತ್ರ ಯಾವತ್ತು ತಾಪತ್ರಯ ಆಗಿಲ್ಲ.
ದಿನ ರಾತ್ರಿ ಮಲಗೋ ಮೊದಲು ಬೆಳಿಗ್ಗೆ ಬೇಗ ಎದ್ದು ಉದ್ಯಾನವನದಲ್ಲಿ ನಡೆಯಲು ಹೋಗಬೇಕು ಅಂತ ಅಂದುಕೊಂಡು ಮಲಗುತ್ತೇನೆ. ಆದರೆ ಬೆಳಗಾಗೋದೇ ಗೊತ್ತಾಗಲ್ಲ. ಗೊತ್ತಾದ್ರೂ ಅಲಾರ್ಮ್ ಆರಿಸಿ ಮತ್ತೆ ನಿದ್ದೆ!! ಏನಾರ ಬೆಳಿಗ್ಗೆ ಬೇಗ ಆಫೀಸಿಗೆ ಹೋಗ್ಬೇಕು ಅಂದ್ರೆ ನಿದ್ದೆಯಿಂದಾಗಿ ರಜ ಹಾಕೋಣ ಅನ್ನಿಸುತ್ತೆ. ಎಷ್ಟೋ ಸರ್ತಿ ನಿದ್ದೆ ಗೋಸ್ಕರ ಸ್ಕೂಲ್, ಕಾಲೇಜು ಆಫೀಸ್ ಗೆ ರಜ ಹಾಕಿದ್ದಿದೆ. ಹಾಕಿ ಮನೇಲಿ ಬೈಸಿಕೊಂಡಿದ್ದಿದೆ :) ಇದೊಂದೇ ಅಲ್ಲ, ನನಗೆ ಸಿಕ್ಕಾಪಟ್ಟೆ ಕೋಪ ಬಂದಾಗ, ನಿದ್ದೆ ಕೂಡ ಜೊತೆಗೆ ಬರುತ್ತೆ. ನಿದ್ದೆ ಮಾಡಿ ಎದ್ದರೆ, ಕೋಪ ಹೋಗಿರುತ್ತೆ, ಎಲ್ಲ ಮತ್ತೆ ನಾರ್ಮಲ್, ಒಂದುತರಹ ಕೂಲಿಂಗ್ ಎಫೆಕ್ಟ್ ನನ್ನ ತಲೆಗೆ ಅದು.
ಹೆಚ್ಚು ಕಡಿಮೆ ಎಲ್ಲರ ಕಥೇನೂ ಇದೆ ಅನ್ಸುತ್ತೆ. ಆಫೀಸ್ನಲ್ಲಿ ನಿದ್ದೆ, ಬಸ್ ನಲ್ಲಿ ನಿದ್ದೆ, ತಿಂಡಿ ನಿದ್ದೆ, ಕಾಫಿ ನಿದ್ದೆ, ಹೀಗೆ ಎಷ್ಟೋ ರೀತಿಯ ನಿದ್ದೆಗಳು. ನಮ್ಮ ದೇವೇಗೌಡರು ಎಲ್ಲ ವೇದಿಕೆಗಳ ಮೇಲೆ ಕೂತು ನಿದ್ದೆ ಮಾಡ್ತಾ ಇರ್ತಾರೆ. ಇನ್ನೊಂದು ಮರ್ತಿದ್ದೆ - ದೋಸೆ ನಿದ್ದೆ. ಇದು ಎಲ್ಲರಿಗು ಪರಿಚಯ ಅನ್ಸುತ್ತೆ. ದೋಸೆ ತಿಂದ ಸ್ವಲ್ಪ ಹೊತ್ತಿಗೆ ನಿದ್ದೆ ಶುರು ಆಗುತ್ತೆ. ಅಯ್ಯೋ, ಇನ್ನು ಎಷ್ಟೊಂದು ಮರೆತಿದ್ದೀನಿ - ಶಾಲಾ ಕಾಲೇಜಿನಲ್ಲಿ ಪಾಠ ಕೇಳ್ತಾ ನಿದ್ದೆ, ಆಫೀಸ್ ನಲ್ಲಿ ಕೆಲಸ ಮಾಡ್ತಾ ತೂಕಡಿಸೋದು, ಇನ್ನು ಓದಕ್ಕೆ ಕೂತರಂತು ಸಿಕ್ಕಾಪಟ್ಟೆ ನಿದ್ದೆ. ಎಲ್ಲ ವಿಧ್ಯಾರ್ಥಿಗಳಿಗೂ ಇದು ತಾಪತ್ರಯನೇ.
ಇನ್ನ ಕೆಲವರು ಇದ್ದಾರೆ. ಅವರಿಗೆ ಏನು ಮಾಡಿದರೂ ನಿದ್ದೆ ಬರಲ್ಲ. ಏನೆಲ್ಲಾ ಕಷ್ಟ ಪಡುತ್ತಾರೆ ನಿದ್ದೆ ಮಾಡಕ್ಕೆ. ನಿದ್ರೆ ಮಾತ್ರೆ ತೊಗೋತಾರೆ, ಧ್ಯಾನ ಮಾಡ್ತಾರೆ, ವ್ಯಾಯಾಮ ಮಾಡ್ತಾರೆ ..ಹೀಗೆ ..ಏನೇನೋ. ದೇವರು ಯಾಕೆ ಹೀಗೆ ಮಾಡ್ತಾರೋ? ನಿದ್ದೆ ಬೇಕು ಅನ್ನುವವರಿಗೆ ನಿದ್ದೆ ಕೊಡಲ್ಲ. ಬೇಡ ಅನ್ನುವವರಿಗೆ ಸಿಕ್ಕಾಪಟ್ಟೆ ನಿದ್ದೆ ಬರುತ್ತೆ. ವಿಚಿತ್ರ ಅಲ್ಲವೆ ಜೀವನ?
ನೋಡಿ ಈಗ ಈ ಬ್ಲಾಗ್ ಬರೀತಾ ಇದ್ರೂನೂ ಸಿಕ್ಕಾಪಟ್ಟೆ ಕಣ್ಣು ಎಳಿತಾ ಇದೆ. ನಿದ್ದೆ ಬರ್ತಾ ಇದೆ zzzzzzz
ದಿನ ರಾತ್ರಿ ಮಲಗೋ ಮೊದಲು ಬೆಳಿಗ್ಗೆ ಬೇಗ ಎದ್ದು ಉದ್ಯಾನವನದಲ್ಲಿ ನಡೆಯಲು ಹೋಗಬೇಕು ಅಂತ ಅಂದುಕೊಂಡು ಮಲಗುತ್ತೇನೆ. ಆದರೆ ಬೆಳಗಾಗೋದೇ ಗೊತ್ತಾಗಲ್ಲ. ಗೊತ್ತಾದ್ರೂ ಅಲಾರ್ಮ್ ಆರಿಸಿ ಮತ್ತೆ ನಿದ್ದೆ!! ಏನಾರ ಬೆಳಿಗ್ಗೆ ಬೇಗ ಆಫೀಸಿಗೆ ಹೋಗ್ಬೇಕು ಅಂದ್ರೆ ನಿದ್ದೆಯಿಂದಾಗಿ ರಜ ಹಾಕೋಣ ಅನ್ನಿಸುತ್ತೆ. ಎಷ್ಟೋ ಸರ್ತಿ ನಿದ್ದೆ ಗೋಸ್ಕರ ಸ್ಕೂಲ್, ಕಾಲೇಜು ಆಫೀಸ್ ಗೆ ರಜ ಹಾಕಿದ್ದಿದೆ. ಹಾಕಿ ಮನೇಲಿ ಬೈಸಿಕೊಂಡಿದ್ದಿದೆ :) ಇದೊಂದೇ ಅಲ್ಲ, ನನಗೆ ಸಿಕ್ಕಾಪಟ್ಟೆ ಕೋಪ ಬಂದಾಗ, ನಿದ್ದೆ ಕೂಡ ಜೊತೆಗೆ ಬರುತ್ತೆ. ನಿದ್ದೆ ಮಾಡಿ ಎದ್ದರೆ, ಕೋಪ ಹೋಗಿರುತ್ತೆ, ಎಲ್ಲ ಮತ್ತೆ ನಾರ್ಮಲ್, ಒಂದುತರಹ ಕೂಲಿಂಗ್ ಎಫೆಕ್ಟ್ ನನ್ನ ತಲೆಗೆ ಅದು.
ಹೆಚ್ಚು ಕಡಿಮೆ ಎಲ್ಲರ ಕಥೇನೂ ಇದೆ ಅನ್ಸುತ್ತೆ. ಆಫೀಸ್ನಲ್ಲಿ ನಿದ್ದೆ, ಬಸ್ ನಲ್ಲಿ ನಿದ್ದೆ, ತಿಂಡಿ ನಿದ್ದೆ, ಕಾಫಿ ನಿದ್ದೆ, ಹೀಗೆ ಎಷ್ಟೋ ರೀತಿಯ ನಿದ್ದೆಗಳು. ನಮ್ಮ ದೇವೇಗೌಡರು ಎಲ್ಲ ವೇದಿಕೆಗಳ ಮೇಲೆ ಕೂತು ನಿದ್ದೆ ಮಾಡ್ತಾ ಇರ್ತಾರೆ. ಇನ್ನೊಂದು ಮರ್ತಿದ್ದೆ - ದೋಸೆ ನಿದ್ದೆ. ಇದು ಎಲ್ಲರಿಗು ಪರಿಚಯ ಅನ್ಸುತ್ತೆ. ದೋಸೆ ತಿಂದ ಸ್ವಲ್ಪ ಹೊತ್ತಿಗೆ ನಿದ್ದೆ ಶುರು ಆಗುತ್ತೆ. ಅಯ್ಯೋ, ಇನ್ನು ಎಷ್ಟೊಂದು ಮರೆತಿದ್ದೀನಿ - ಶಾಲಾ ಕಾಲೇಜಿನಲ್ಲಿ ಪಾಠ ಕೇಳ್ತಾ ನಿದ್ದೆ, ಆಫೀಸ್ ನಲ್ಲಿ ಕೆಲಸ ಮಾಡ್ತಾ ತೂಕಡಿಸೋದು, ಇನ್ನು ಓದಕ್ಕೆ ಕೂತರಂತು ಸಿಕ್ಕಾಪಟ್ಟೆ ನಿದ್ದೆ. ಎಲ್ಲ ವಿಧ್ಯಾರ್ಥಿಗಳಿಗೂ ಇದು ತಾಪತ್ರಯನೇ.
ಇನ್ನ ಕೆಲವರು ಇದ್ದಾರೆ. ಅವರಿಗೆ ಏನು ಮಾಡಿದರೂ ನಿದ್ದೆ ಬರಲ್ಲ. ಏನೆಲ್ಲಾ ಕಷ್ಟ ಪಡುತ್ತಾರೆ ನಿದ್ದೆ ಮಾಡಕ್ಕೆ. ನಿದ್ರೆ ಮಾತ್ರೆ ತೊಗೋತಾರೆ, ಧ್ಯಾನ ಮಾಡ್ತಾರೆ, ವ್ಯಾಯಾಮ ಮಾಡ್ತಾರೆ ..ಹೀಗೆ ..ಏನೇನೋ. ದೇವರು ಯಾಕೆ ಹೀಗೆ ಮಾಡ್ತಾರೋ? ನಿದ್ದೆ ಬೇಕು ಅನ್ನುವವರಿಗೆ ನಿದ್ದೆ ಕೊಡಲ್ಲ. ಬೇಡ ಅನ್ನುವವರಿಗೆ ಸಿಕ್ಕಾಪಟ್ಟೆ ನಿದ್ದೆ ಬರುತ್ತೆ. ವಿಚಿತ್ರ ಅಲ್ಲವೆ ಜೀವನ?
ನೋಡಿ ಈಗ ಈ ಬ್ಲಾಗ್ ಬರೀತಾ ಇದ್ರೂನೂ ಸಿಕ್ಕಾಪಟ್ಟೆ ಕಣ್ಣು ಎಳಿತಾ ಇದೆ. ನಿದ್ದೆ ಬರ್ತಾ ಇದೆ zzzzzzz
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Higher Studies
Off late I get bored over the weekends. Don’t know how to spend time and I hate to go out in Bangalore as most of the places are crowded and hardly any air to breathe plus traffic. Most of the weekends, I spend in sleeping or watching TV which is making me lazier day by day.
So lately I have been planning to take up another PG course. Since I am a B.Sc (Electronics) graduate, I feel M.Sc (IT) would suit my background and help me in at my job as well. And I am almost done with MBA (just the project submission is pending and that will get over may end.) If any thought comes to mind, I do it immediately. Checked a few websites and I felt KSOU and Sikkim Manipal University had the same program and finally decided to go with KSOU as my brother is also pursuing the same course.
Then I went to the Bangalore regional office to get the application forms. The coordinator, suggested me to go for Kuvempu university as they have an option where, if we have a graduation+ 3 yrs IT experience we get a direct entry to 3rd semester. So I just have to study for a year instead of 2 incase of KSOU.
I felt it as a better option and in fact my parents also liked it.
I am a born confused soul, so thought of discussing with my friends if I made the right choice. Oh my God!! Trust me that confused me even more!!!
Look at the answers/suggestions I get:
1. Why do you want to do a PG? Do some computer certification.
2. Don’t do a PG from these universities. Do it only from IIM and any similar reputed institutes
3. Why don’t you quit and pursue a full time PG?
4. Kuvempu University?? Wrong choice. It doesn’t have a good reputation
5. Why do you want to waste time again studying?
6. If you want a PG, you can get a certificate if you pay well. Why waste 2/1 yr for that?
7. Why don’t you do it from any foreign university?
Many more…
Now I don’t really know what to choose or how to proceed. Is it really necessary that I have to spend lakhs of rupees and do a course from IIM, IIMB, ICFAI or any such place? I understand that the standard of education in these institutes is different and has good standard. Still that’s not the only option for everyone. I think what we learn, how we learn and how we implement matters than the place from where we have got the PG.
I always remember one thing that my Principal Dr. Balachandra Rao said when I was in college- “What is your age now? 20, 21 or 22 years. You have a long way to go in life, at least another 40years. Don’t stop your studies with just this graduation. Keep learning throughout your life”
I know it’s not a punch line or any well known words. But it does make a lot of sense when we think about it.
Anyways, my issue is still not solved. I am yet to decide about my PG course. Hope I can do it soon :)
So lately I have been planning to take up another PG course. Since I am a B.Sc (Electronics) graduate, I feel M.Sc (IT) would suit my background and help me in at my job as well. And I am almost done with MBA (just the project submission is pending and that will get over may end.) If any thought comes to mind, I do it immediately. Checked a few websites and I felt KSOU and Sikkim Manipal University had the same program and finally decided to go with KSOU as my brother is also pursuing the same course.
Then I went to the Bangalore regional office to get the application forms. The coordinator, suggested me to go for Kuvempu university as they have an option where, if we have a graduation+ 3 yrs IT experience we get a direct entry to 3rd semester. So I just have to study for a year instead of 2 incase of KSOU.
I felt it as a better option and in fact my parents also liked it.
I am a born confused soul, so thought of discussing with my friends if I made the right choice. Oh my God!! Trust me that confused me even more!!!
Look at the answers/suggestions I get:
1. Why do you want to do a PG? Do some computer certification.
2. Don’t do a PG from these universities. Do it only from IIM and any similar reputed institutes
3. Why don’t you quit and pursue a full time PG?
4. Kuvempu University?? Wrong choice. It doesn’t have a good reputation
5. Why do you want to waste time again studying?
6. If you want a PG, you can get a certificate if you pay well. Why waste 2/1 yr for that?
7. Why don’t you do it from any foreign university?
Many more…
Now I don’t really know what to choose or how to proceed. Is it really necessary that I have to spend lakhs of rupees and do a course from IIM, IIMB, ICFAI or any such place? I understand that the standard of education in these institutes is different and has good standard. Still that’s not the only option for everyone. I think what we learn, how we learn and how we implement matters than the place from where we have got the PG.
I always remember one thing that my Principal Dr. Balachandra Rao said when I was in college- “What is your age now? 20, 21 or 22 years. You have a long way to go in life, at least another 40years. Don’t stop your studies with just this graduation. Keep learning throughout your life”
I know it’s not a punch line or any well known words. But it does make a lot of sense when we think about it.
Anyways, my issue is still not solved. I am yet to decide about my PG course. Hope I can do it soon :)
Monday, April 5, 2010
Job Change
26th of March 2010 was my last day in IBM. 3 + years of acquaintance with IBM came to an end on this day and I am no more any IBMer now.
I reached office at around 11am on Friday, 26th.I was very happy to see that the HR had already mailed the resignation acceptance letter. Went to the cafeteria with my colleagues and had my last cup of tea with them. One last time checked my mails, returned the desktop, confirmed all the processes and procedures completed all formalities sent out the “My Last Day in IBM” mail and was about to leave when my manager called up.
He asked me if I returned my ID Card. Since he sits in a different location, I had sent it to him through internal courier. I went to the mail room and sent it as told. Till then everything seem to be fine. I have happy to quit IBM. But once I submitted my ID card, it was a weird feeling. I was no more a part of IBM. Since I did not have access card anymore, I was not suppose to enter the office premises and had to go around about to get my car from the basement. I don’t know what I felt- Sad, confused, missing something, happy about the new opportunity in another company? Don’t really know. 3 years is a long time. Lots of things happened during this period. IBM is the company which gave me a chance when I really wanted it. It gave me a different kind of exposure at work. It helped me upgrade my skill set, learn different tools, onsite opportunity, work from home option, flexibility, growth, a brand name on my resume - what all and what not. “IBM, I miss you”
The coming Monday, i.e. 29th march, I joined Mindtree. It is a different world all together. Even now when someone asks me where I am working, IBM is the first word that comes to my mind. :)
I am slowly getting used to this place. New people, new environment, new processes and procedures, I think it is a start over again. Probably this cycle will continue throughout my career. Will I feel the same way if change company again? I don’t really know. Every time, I decide not to get attached to the company or people. But the feeling is the same in the end. Does everyone feel the same way?
I reached office at around 11am on Friday, 26th.I was very happy to see that the HR had already mailed the resignation acceptance letter. Went to the cafeteria with my colleagues and had my last cup of tea with them. One last time checked my mails, returned the desktop, confirmed all the processes and procedures completed all formalities sent out the “My Last Day in IBM” mail and was about to leave when my manager called up.
He asked me if I returned my ID Card. Since he sits in a different location, I had sent it to him through internal courier. I went to the mail room and sent it as told. Till then everything seem to be fine. I have happy to quit IBM. But once I submitted my ID card, it was a weird feeling. I was no more a part of IBM. Since I did not have access card anymore, I was not suppose to enter the office premises and had to go around about to get my car from the basement. I don’t know what I felt- Sad, confused, missing something, happy about the new opportunity in another company? Don’t really know. 3 years is a long time. Lots of things happened during this period. IBM is the company which gave me a chance when I really wanted it. It gave me a different kind of exposure at work. It helped me upgrade my skill set, learn different tools, onsite opportunity, work from home option, flexibility, growth, a brand name on my resume - what all and what not. “IBM, I miss you”
The coming Monday, i.e. 29th march, I joined Mindtree. It is a different world all together. Even now when someone asks me where I am working, IBM is the first word that comes to my mind. :)
I am slowly getting used to this place. New people, new environment, new processes and procedures, I think it is a start over again. Probably this cycle will continue throughout my career. Will I feel the same way if change company again? I don’t really know. Every time, I decide not to get attached to the company or people. But the feeling is the same in the end. Does everyone feel the same way?
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